2019 has been a really weird year for me. I have so much to be grateful for but to call it an easy year would be simply false. For every moment of joy, there’s been a hardship, for every smile, there’s been a tear, for every moment of clarity, I’ve felt just as lost. but this isn’t a post of discontent, more one of realizing that, actually there’s no shame in being lost. Continue reading “There’s no shame in being lost.”
Last time we covered up to possibly my favourite song of the album, “Aimless knight” and we still have 6 more tracks to go through, so let’s begin. In case you missed the first part, you can find a link to it here: A breakdown of “Zeal” by Kings Kaleidoscope (part 1) Continue reading “A Breakdown of “Zeal” by Kings kaleidoscope (part 2)”
Last week was my latest journey to the conference known as “New wine United”, and there’s a few things I need to mention before we get into today’s topic.
I wasn’t even supposed to be at United this year. God, however, had other plans – and to New wine I went. To be honest, I was actually really nervous about this year’s conference. It was the first year that I was basically the only person in my age group as most of my friends in that age group, for one reason or another, couldn’t come.
It was also the first year since attending United that I hadn’t camped with my original church. I instead went with the church I’ve been serving at for a number of years now. So it was really a strange year. Yet, I can say that it’s been a real blessing of a week honestly! Last bit of admin stuff before I get started properly; the rundown of the album “Zeal” by Kings Kaleidoscope should be up by the end of the month, I really want to make an effort to get back into investing in this page, something that I’ve been neglecting for the past year or so.
I have a habit of losing sight of hope. It’s not a case of losing faith, or not trusting in the goodness of God, but more of a blindness that shuts out all hope. It overwhelms my vision, to the point where I know that nothing will get better, and that I’m destined to remain trapped in that cloud of hopelessness. Well, i think i know anyway. Until i take a step back and realise how much of an overreaction that actually is. Continue reading “Build your life: Hold on to hope.”
After i finished last weeks post (if you haven’t read it yet you can find it here: Break the circle, claim your confidence.) i felt God tell me to make this more of a constant theme on this blog, well, at least for now. In this series, i’m going to be documenting my journey of self-worth, and sharing some of the lessons that i’ve learnt.
One of the things that i’ve had to learn to cope with is, that i’m not perfect. And that no one thinks that i am. Sounds obvious right? You just need to look at the frequency of the blog this year to see that i’m not! However it’s not as simple as “i’m not perfect, so i’m bound to make mistakes” or at least, it isn’t for me.
I hold myself to an unrealistic standard, one that i don’t hold others to. I expect to get everything right in one try, no matter how out of my depth i may be, or how hard the task at hand is. I expect perfection from myself in social situations, despite the fact i’m not the most social person out there. i guess the point i’m trying to make is, failure is one of my biggest fears. Continue reading “Build your life part 1 : Give yourself some grace.”
“If you are able to work on yourself and improve to a point where you are able to get what you once wanted, and be able to turn that down because it isn’t right for you, that’s true maturity”
2018 has already been a year full of changes and improvement, or at least an attempt at the latter, if i look back on last year and where i am in my thinking and my faith, it’s like night and day, and i may have a long way to go but i can’t wait for the journey ahead. And part of this journey so far is actually making an effort to work on my weight by attending the gym. Continue reading “What God taught me about maturity”
Wow, i hadn’t realised how long it’d been since my last post, i’m sorry for my lack of commitment to the schedule. Advent is always a busy time for me, and sometimes i get carried away in the festivities, not leaving much time for anything else. But i thought i should get at least one more post out before the new year. And it’s a subject that we must hold dear in this season.
I love Christmas time. I love the lights, the extra church services, the encouragement to spend time with those we hold dear. All of these things are a huge part of Christmas for me. Yet, the more i think about it, the more i realise there’s something missing from this list. Sure, i mentioned church services, but i do forget to mention the reason there’s so many over this time of year. And i’ve noticed a lot of us do. Continue reading “Christ in Christmas”