Transparent faith.

Transparent faith.

First of all, i want to apologise for the lack of a post last week. I’d just got home from a mini vacation to the city of Sheffield to visit a good friend, and when i got home, i really didn’t have the energy to write anything, it may not be a good reason, but it’s an honest one.  Which leads into the topic of this weeks post perfectly!

There seems to be a running theme of transparency not only in terms of my emotions, but in terms of my faith. I’m terrible at being honest with my feelings. If i’m feeling depressed, i have a tendency to shut myself away, if someone has hurt or upset me, i have a compulsion to shut down rather than resolve the conflict. It’s an issue that i need to confront, maybe even in time, overcome it. But it’s the second part of this that’s got me thinking. Continue reading “Transparent faith.”

A new tactic… (doubts in identity)

A new tactic… (doubts in identity)

So last week, i wrote about the slip up i had in terms of my depression and my mindset. (A moment of kindness…)  See, the root of my problem is an inherent lack of self-esteem. It was a revelation to say the lest, that maybe the reason i’m struggling to overcome the darkness that plays out in my mind is because i don’t feel worthy of overcoming it. I’m sharing this not as a means of attention grabbing, or as a plea for sympathy, but as an attempt at transparency. Continue reading “A new tactic… (doubts in identity)”

United in love.

United in love.

As we begin the year of 2017, I can’t help but reflect on last year. In all honesty, it was a rough year on a personal level, I had huge struggles with my mental health, really struggled with my faith and made an effort to cut off those that tried to support me, but the good Lord kept me on track with him, he helped me see the error of my ways, in my mind and in my heart, and slowly, helping me make amends to those I hurt while I was in that mindset. But this weeks post isn’t about me, but the love that our God shows to all of us. Continue reading “United in love.”

God himself will provide the lamb.

God himself will provide the lamb.

I hope everyone had an amazing Christmas, I really do love this time of year as I’ve stated many times before at this point. Another thing I love about this month where we remember the birth of Christ, and the sacrifice he made for us, is it allows me a chance to wrestle with some parts of the word that i struggle with, and until last night, there was a very specific part of genesis that I had trouble comprehending. That part is Abraham and Issac. Continue reading “God himself will provide the lamb.”

The present of his presence.

The present of his presence.

At the time of writing, it’ll be just under two weeks to Christmas. I love Christmas, its honestly one of my favorite times of the year, Of course I love it for being the time where we celebrate the birth of our savor Jesus Christ, however i tend to find smaller things that i also love along with this amazing event. I love the atmosphere, I love the lights, I love the gingerbread lattes that only really get sold at this time of year! But one of the biggest reasons I love this time of year is a simple one. It’s a time of year where not only is everyone seems to be a lot more open to the love of God. Continue reading “The present of his presence.”

The prince of preachers part 2: humble in pain, hopeful in depression.

The prince of preachers part 2: humble in pain, hopeful in depression.

Earlier this week, I wrote a piece on a man named Charles Spurgeon, and why i feel that his story is an inspiration to our young people of the church of Christ (you can read that piece here The Prince of Preachers part 1: A message for the youth. ) where this part is more focused around the depression and other afflictions that Mr Spurgeon suffered in his life.

Before I start, while I was researching his battle with bouts of depression, i found this quote from him, and this really has got me thinking about why i started this blog, why i keep pushing through the darkness of depression.

“I would go into the deeps a hundred times to cheer a downcast spirit. It is good for me to have been afflicted, that I might know how to speak a word in season to one that is weary.” Continue reading “The prince of preachers part 2: humble in pain, hopeful in depression.”