Build your life: Hold on to hope.

Build your life: Hold on to hope.

I have a habit of losing sight of hope. It’s not a case of losing faith, or not trusting in the goodness of God, but more of a blindness that shuts out all hope. It overwhelms my vision, to the point where I know that nothing will get better, and that I’m destined to remain trapped in that cloud of hopelessness. Well, i think i know anyway. Until i take a step back and realise how much of an overreaction that actually is. Continue reading “Build your life: Hold on to hope.”

Build your life part 1 : Give yourself some grace.

Build your life part 1 : Give yourself some grace.

After i finished last weeks post (if you haven’t read it yet you can find it here: Break the circle, claim your confidence.) i felt God tell me to make this more of a constant theme on this blog, well, at least for now. In this series, i’m going to be documenting my journey of self-worth, and sharing some of the lessons that i’ve learnt.

One of the things that i’ve had to learn to cope with is, that i’m not perfect. And that no one thinks that i am. Sounds obvious right? You just need to look at the frequency of the blog this year to see that i’m not! However it’s not as simple as “i’m not perfect, so i’m bound to make mistakes” or at least, it isn’t for me.

I hold myself to an unrealistic standard, one that i don’t hold others to. I expect to get everything right in one try, no matter how out of my depth i may be, or how hard the task at hand is. I expect perfection from myself in social situations, despite the fact i’m not the most social person out there. i guess the point i’m trying to make is, failure is one of my biggest fears.  Continue reading “Build your life part 1 : Give yourself some grace.”

How Andy Mineo’s “I ain’t done” helped me face my anxiety.

How Andy Mineo’s “I ain’t done” helped me face my anxiety.

So it’s been a while since i’ve written something, there’s numerous reasons for that. But if i’m honest, the main reason has been issues of anxiety. And considering its mental health awareness week at the time of writing, what better time than now to get back into writing?

A lot has happened in my life since the last time i posted all the way back in February, i’ve gained friends and i’ve lost some. I’ve had moments of divine clarity and of absolute emotional devastation. In the case of some of these events, i will go into detail in some future posts, but right now all i’ll say is, it’s been an eventful few months.  Continue reading “How Andy Mineo’s “I ain’t done” helped me face my anxiety.”

What God taught me about maturity

What God taught me about maturity

“If you are able to work on yourself and improve to a point where you are able to get what you once wanted, and be able to turn that down because it isn’t right for you, that’s true maturity”

2018 has already been a year full of changes and improvement, or at least an attempt at the latter, if i look back on last year and where i am in my thinking and my faith, it’s like night and day, and i may have a long way to go but i can’t wait for the journey ahead. And part of this journey so far is actually making an effort to work on my weight by attending the gym. Continue reading “What God taught me about maturity”

Burning dying wood and the importance of letting go.

Burning dying wood and the importance of letting go.

“if someone says to you, there’s some dead wood here and it needs to be burnt off, and you say to yourself, some of this is still alive, so when this burns it’s going to hurt, no kidding.  But maybe the thing that emerges in its place is something better and i think, this is the secret of humans, this is what we’re like.  Unlike any other creature is that, we can let our old selves die and let our new selves be reborn, and that’s what we should do”. Continue reading Burning dying wood and the importance of letting go.

Christ in Christmas

Christ in Christmas

Wow, i hadn’t realised how long it’d been since my last post, i’m sorry for my lack of commitment to the schedule. Advent is always a busy time for me, and sometimes i get carried away in the festivities, not leaving much time for anything else. But i thought i should get at least one more post out before the new year. And it’s a subject that we must hold dear in this season.

I love Christmas time. I love the lights, the extra church services, the encouragement to spend time with those we hold dear. All of these things are a huge part of Christmas for me. Yet, the more i think about it, the more i realise there’s something missing from this list. Sure, i mentioned church services, but i do forget to mention the reason there’s so many over this time of year. And i’ve noticed a lot of us do. Continue reading “Christ in Christmas”