Though i am weak…

Though i am weak…

This week has been a real mixed bag for me honestly. The Lord has answered my prayer for a new PC meaning i can also start some other projects relating to Life after Darkness in the near future (for more info on that say tuned in the coming weeks) along with being able to get more posts out at a more consistent rate, and i’m so grateful for that. The Lord is good, and truly wants the best for us. But this week hasn’t come with its fair share of struggles.

For the first time in a long time, i’ve been feeling like an outcast, not just with my friends, but also my family. It’s caused me to struggle with being as social as i’d normally like to be. And honestly has been making me feel on the edge, i know this is an attack, but honestly that doesn’t make it any easier to deal with, so i did what i normally do if i’m feeling like this in a service, i began to read the word. Continue reading “Though i am weak…”

Death to self… loathing.

Death to self… loathing.

I have no idea why, but something has changed in me this past week. I know the Lord has been in this change, as it’s nothing but good, my confidence is through the roof, i’m moving on into the role that the lord has called me into, and even if i’m not perfect (which i’m far from) i’m happy being me for the first time in a long time! And there’s a reason for this.

A topic i’ve spoken a lot about on this blog is the idea that we must die to ourselves in order to truly live for God. What if i told you that’s more than just giving up on our own desires? And it includes how we perceive ourselves? This is the very notion that i was challenged with after a meeting last monday night. Continue reading “Death to self… loathing.”

Word for Word: chapter 1 “Stop Praying” (Crazy love)

Word for Word: chapter 1 “Stop Praying” (Crazy love)

What can i say about this chapter? I had high expectations considering i am a fan of some of Francis Chans’ talks, but until now i’m yet to read any of his books, but i’m so glad i’ve started after this. In cased you missed last weeks intro, welcome to this new series that will be known as “Word for Word” for the time being, my goal in this series is to go through a book, one chapter at a time and find different ways that the Good Lord has blessed the words contained inside! We’ll be starting with “Crazy Love” By Francis Chan, so if you haven’t read it or you’d like to read along with me please pick it up! Continue reading “Word for Word: chapter 1 “Stop Praying” (Crazy love)”

The sinner and the savior (mental health awareness week)

The sinner and the savior (mental health awareness week)

This weekend has been challenging in the best possible way. On Saturday a good friend and i helped lead worship at a community event, and though it was stressful, the Lord was really with us in that time of trial. And on sunday, i ended up going to 3 church services in the space of a few hours. While this may not seem challenging on its own, i was leading worship and doing the prayers of intercession in one of these services, and doing the talk for one of the latter ones. In doing these things which i love to be a part of and am proud to be able to do with the love of God in my heart, it has got me looking back over the past year, not just in where i am with my faith, but where i am with my mental health, and what better time than in this week of mental health awareness to push into this issue. Continue reading “The sinner and the savior (mental health awareness week)”

Because he lives.

Because he lives.

There’s been a lot going on in the best few weeks. Some of it not great (the issues with the laptop for example, but it seems to be working somewhat well now) some of it amazing (i was confirmed last weekend in front of my good friends and family) but all of it needed. See i’m a firm believer of having the good with the bad, though God doesn’t want us to go through the darkness, he uses it to show us the light. And that hasn’t been more apparent in my life than right now.

I had another setback on my recovery, and though i’m not proud of it, i made a promise to always be honest on this page. A number of weeks back, i fell back into my old ways, of shutting out my friends, and honestly wondering if there was a reason to keep pushing on, i knew God was there, it’s never been a doubt of faith, but more a doubt of my salvation. Why would the price of glory, the one that bridged the gap between the sinners and the kingdom of the Lord most high, die for someone like me? How can i keep pushing on, what reason do i have to keep going? Little did i know my answer would come in a small church two weeks later. Continue reading “Because he lives.”

The testimony of Luke H (one year anniversary special)

The testimony of Luke H (one year anniversary special)

One year ago today, i started this blog. And honestly it’s been quite a journey, I’ve gone from not having the confidence to share my thoughts in this way to having a somewhat large following. My goal for readership when i started this blog was 10. one year later there’s over 80 people following this blog, and i have no idea how to thank you all. You’ve made a working class young man feel like so much more. So even with my laptop issues, i knew that i’d have to do something special for this day. So I’ve decided to share my story of how the living God took a lost young man, and lifted him from the depths of depression. Continue reading “The testimony of Luke H (one year anniversary special)”