Under one cross…

Under one cross…

So this year i’ll be attending week 1 of New wine’s yearly conference also known as “united” and it’s been quite a journey leading up to this point. 6 months ago i wasn’t even sure if i was going with my church this year, so the fact i’m able to shows the goodness of God and the wonderful people he has placed in my life.

Not only has the time been leading up to this been a real challenge, but it’s also been a real change of direction in my journey with the Lord. See, i wasn’t raised in the church, and there’s very few members of my family that do attend church at all, so all i’ve known is from the church i came to Christ in, which was a Church of England Anglican church with some charismatic elements, and it’s all I’ve known till fairly recently. Continue reading “Under one cross…”

Music will be my prayer.

Music will be my prayer.

Music, along with writing, is my way to worship. There’s very things in this life that i love more than music. As one of my favorite bands once sang “Music the great communicator” (i’m very happy if you what song that’s from!)  and i really think this has more truth than we give it credit for.

If you’ve been reading this blog for any amount of time, you’d know about my love for music, the post that’s gotten the most attention on this blog is my piece on why i think that the song “a prayer” by kings kaleidoscope is a turning point in worship music, i’ve written about songs that have touched me in a way that not many things can, songs like “in Christ alone” “Before the throne” and so many more. But why is that? Why does music have such a profound effect on us as followers of Christ? Well i think i might have an answer. Continue reading “Music will be my prayer.”

Word for word: chapter 2 “you may not finish this chapter” (Crazy love)

Word for word: chapter 2 “you may not finish this chapter” (Crazy love)

The more of this book i read, the more i think this may become my favorite book. The more i read, the more i feel not only challenged in my walk with God. But in my mindset in everyday life. i doubt my analysis of this chapter will be as blow-by-blow as it was for the first chapter (which you can find a link to here: Word for Word: chapter 1 “Stop Praying” (Crazy love) ) because this topic is not only a powerful one, but an extremely vast one. Continue reading “Word for word: chapter 2 “you may not finish this chapter” (Crazy love)”

Death to self… loathing.

Death to self… loathing.

I have no idea why, but something has changed in me this past week. I know the Lord has been in this change, as it’s nothing but good, my confidence is through the roof, i’m moving on into the role that the lord has called me into, and even if i’m not perfect (which i’m far from) i’m happy being me for the first time in a long time! And there’s a reason for this.

A topic i’ve spoken a lot about on this blog is the idea that we must die to ourselves in order to truly live for God. What if i told you that’s more than just giving up on our own desires? And it includes how we perceive ourselves? This is the very notion that i was challenged with after a meeting last monday night. Continue reading “Death to self… loathing.”

Word for Word: chapter 1 “Stop Praying” (Crazy love)

Word for Word: chapter 1 “Stop Praying” (Crazy love)

What can i say about this chapter? I had high expectations considering i am a fan of some of Francis Chans’ talks, but until now i’m yet to read any of his books, but i’m so glad i’ve started after this. In cased you missed last weeks intro, welcome to this new series that will be known as “Word for Word” for the time being, my goal in this series is to go through a book, one chapter at a time and find different ways that the Good Lord has blessed the words contained inside! We’ll be starting with “Crazy Love” By Francis Chan, so if you haven’t read it or you’d like to read along with me please pick it up! Continue reading “Word for Word: chapter 1 “Stop Praying” (Crazy love)”

The sinner and the savior (mental health awareness week)

The sinner and the savior (mental health awareness week)

This weekend has been challenging in the best possible way. On Saturday a good friend and i helped lead worship at a community event, and though it was stressful, the Lord was really with us in that time of trial. And on sunday, i ended up going to 3 church services in the space of a few hours. While this may not seem challenging on its own, i was leading worship and doing the prayers of intercession in one of these services, and doing the talk for one of the latter ones. In doing these things which i love to be a part of and am proud to be able to do with the love of God in my heart, it has got me looking back over the past year, not just in where i am with my faith, but where i am with my mental health, and what better time than in this week of mental health awareness to push into this issue. Continue reading “The sinner and the savior (mental health awareness week)”

Because he lives.

Because he lives.

There’s been a lot going on in the best few weeks. Some of it not great (the issues with the laptop for example, but it seems to be working somewhat well now) some of it amazing (i was confirmed last weekend in front of my good friends and family) but all of it needed. See i’m a firm believer of having the good with the bad, though God doesn’t want us to go through the darkness, he uses it to show us the light. And that hasn’t been more apparent in my life than right now.

I had another setback on my recovery, and though i’m not proud of it, i made a promise to always be honest on this page. A number of weeks back, i fell back into my old ways, of shutting out my friends, and honestly wondering if there was a reason to keep pushing on, i knew God was there, it’s never been a doubt of faith, but more a doubt of my salvation. Why would the price of glory, the one that bridged the gap between the sinners and the kingdom of the Lord most high, die for someone like me? How can i keep pushing on, what reason do i have to keep going? Little did i know my answer would come in a small church two weeks later. Continue reading “Because he lives.”