I’m going to be completely honest right now, i had a bit of a slip up yesterday. I was having a great day out with some good friends and i let my depression get the better of me. I’m truly blessed to have the friends that i have, because they tried their hardest to snap me out of it, and i wish that i could have continued in the strength that i’ve had the past few months, but i slipped up and went back into the shell i create to escape from the feeling of numbness that overtakes me from time to time. However, i’m going to be trying to use the good of the day to highlight the blessing that the Lord places on our lives in our time of need, even if we don’t see it at first.
We went to London to visit Hillsong church, and it was an amazing experience, anyone that knows me knows about my love of worship, so that was worth the trip alone, but it was during the sermon the Lord really spoke to me with a simple phrase near the beginning of the talk.
“A moment of kindness when you are at your lowest is infinitely more valuable than when you are doing well” such a simple statement, yet there’s something beautiful about its simplicity. It’s a calling to us all and a testament to the power of a kind act.
I don’t really talk about my time when i moved out of my home town to take an internship on the call of the Lord as much as i should here. Because it was a vital time in my life. I made some amazing friends there, people i still think of and have a huge amount of love and respect for almost two years later. And while this was one of the lowest points in my life in terms of my battle with depression, it was also one of the best. Some of my fondest memories were made in this time. And looking back, when i wasn’t low, i was the best version of me that i’ve ever been. So even with the bad, and how i ended up leaving, there is still blessing in that time, because of the kindness i was shown in that time.
The kindness i was shown shaped me to be a stronger and better person. I still make mistakes, but without that kindness, i would be blind to them. Even though it was the lowest time of my life. It was also the time where the Lord really did bless me.
I wanted to share this not only as a way to thank those that did support me in that time, but as a show of support for my brothers and sisters out there that know what it’s like when the battle with depression seems unwinnable, and it seems like you are all alone with no hope. Allow this to be that moment of kindness.
You are loved. You are important. To your friends, to your family, to everyone around you. You are treasured as child of the almighty father. He has a plan for your life and the hardships that you face are the fires that will mold you into the masterpiece he created you to be. How you feel is important, and you are a blessing to everyone around you.
This week, show everyone around you kindness regardless of situations because for all you know, that kindness could be piece that makes the difference. I’d like to thank my friends and fellow interns from that year, i may not have been the easiest to live with. or to work with. But you always made me feel like i mattered and i know that without the love you guys had shown me, i wouldn’t still be here. I think of you all and i thank the lord for allowing me to meet you all, you were the kindness in my darkest hour and i’ll always be grateful for that.
Thank you for reading and may God Bless you.
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