“Lord, I will put my trust in you, I’m sorry for the times I’ve tried to be in control, the love you have for me is beyond compare, your love is the sweetest, your will is the strongest, and your way is righteous. I don’t know what’s going to happen in the coming years but I know as long as you’re with me, your power will overcome all that stands against me, for I am a child of God, I know I’m not perfect, but you love me all the same, and I love you Jesus, the pain in the night is nothing compared to the joy in the morning, I won’t claim to know your plans, but I know they’re right and just. May your will be mine too, I’ve come so far already and let me continue to walk in your light and name lord. You always provide and God I need your help now. Please provide me with what I need in your name lord.
Thank you for the days I’ve spent with you, may your kingdom reign for evermore
It was three months ago i started this blog. I’d always enjoyed writing poems before I started writing here, but I felt a calling to try something a little different to the typical writing I’d become accustom to. But i thought if i feel that God’s in what i’m doing, i know i’m doing what’s right. And also a good distraction from how i was feeling at the time.
This year has been a real struggle so far, my depression has been worse then it’s ever been, I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts as well as self harming. I’ve had more panic attacks than i can count, and i convinced myself that nothing good was going to come out of this year, I’d pretty much given up, but God had other plans for me. The thing is, I’m blessed with the gift of prophecy on occasion, I love being able to bless others with God given words and pictures. But for the first time, i actually got something for myself.
When i was was at my lowest, i got a phrase that I’ve never thought for myself. That phrase was “If you only knew the plans i have for you Luke.” and this was the turning point, this was the moment that i felt his love once more, and this is something i knew i needed to write about.
Depression is a horrible feeling, it can crush the strongest spirit, it can isolate the most in tune soul, and it can cripple even the biggest heart. But we have the one that made the moon and the stars as our defender. The lion of Judah is stronger than the anything the enemy can throw at us. We are loved more than we can ever realize! Our God is a God that was willing to give his only son that we might be saved, the love he has for us is unrivaled, and you will get through this. You are strong because he is strong. You are saved by his grace, you are loved because he is love.
That’s not to say that everyday you ever have will be great, because life is a Challenge, it is tough, and is a struggle. We will have days were the darkness will get to us, where it surrounds us and clouds our minds. But we must keep looking for his light, because it is always there. And he will use your struggles for your good. Our Jesus is a savior that will meet you where you are and love you all the same, as long as you’re willing to meet with him. Depression is a strong feeling. But our God is stronger.
There’s always light after darkness, and there’s life after darkness. So keep searching for that light.
As a little extra here’s the song that inspired this weeks blog (Orion by Ghost ship )
Thank you for reading. Keep searching and May God Bless you.
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