Hi everyone, this is week 4 on the topic of “The I in Christ” this week’s post is written not just as an encouragement piece for those suffering with depression or anxiety, but as a reminder to myself, that you can get through the trials that you will face, you can beat the struggles you’ll face, and that’s not by your strength, but by God’s in you. If you have any suggestions for later posts or any topics you’d like me to write about let me know in the comments!
Something that’s become a mainstay of my content is my battle with clinical depression. I mean even the tagline of this blog is “Living with depression while living for Christ” and these are words I stand by (read living with depression, living for Christ for more on that phrase) i mention this because, this week has been a real struggle. My anxiety has been at its worst, I’ve been pretty low and today i had my money that I have to live on for the next week or so taken from my bank without my permission.
The old me would dwell on this, would take this as a sign that God has forgotten about me, that I’m no worth his time, that he hates me. The old me would blame everyone around me, “It’s them that are making me anxious” “It’s his fault that I’m depressed” That’s not to say I don’t struggle with those thoughts, because I’m human, I’m just as broken as everyone else, but even in this time where there seems to be nothing good happening, where i feel let down and alone, I know that his will shall be done through my struggles, because, when i’m following Jesus, I’m Stronger than the sorrow in my life. The darkness will follow me, and may even surround me at times, but his light will still remain and overwhelm.
And the wonderful thing about Jesus is, if you’re willing to let him in, he will be with you through the good and the bad. He is the lord of all things, and when you let him help you carry the burdens in your heart and in your life, no weight is too heavy for him. In Matthew 11 (28-30) it says “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” We may grow weary and let the problems of this world burden us, but Jesus took up the cross so he may help carry yours. Bad things will happen in your life, as we’re in a broken and hurting world, but he is stronger than the sorrow and you are through him. All you have to do is be willing to meet with him, and embrace the love he has for you as one of his Children.
That’s not to say that if you suffer with depression that it’ll just go away straight away, I’ve been a follower of Christ for 5 years and I’m still suffering with my mental illnesses, but it’s the light that I know he brings that keeps me fighting and following him, I’ve been through some real struggles in my lifetime, and even when i thought he should have because i believed i wasn’t worthy of having anyone love me, let alone the Son of God. But even through that, he never left me. He will carry you through in his strength if you let him take the weight. No matter how hopeless it seems, or lonely it may be, he will always love you, and his love will make you strong.
Thank you for reading. And May God bless you.